All That I Need
Unlimited supply of…
friends
kindness
new experiences
wherever I choose to go and wherever life brings me.
Thank you so much, Lord.
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
Another home run from you today, Lord. Thank you!
Failure on my part
As the fulfillment of a long-awaited dream is happening, another one is on shaky grounds.
…
Mrs. Hinkley
Airport Dike Trail
March 23, 2012
This is a proof that this actually happened, and that I didn’t just dream it.
She actually called me, for the first time outside the bounds of our job, and asked me if I would want to join her in a hike. On a rare warm sunny Juneau day. On a trail I haven’t been in but always wanted to go.
Are you kidding me? Of course I want to go! I’d love to! I wouldn’t miss it for the world. When I saw her name on my voice mail alerts, I thought my phone was screwing up again and messing up my contacts. I listened to the message and it was really her. I couldn’t believe it. My heart must have danced right on the spot. It was unexpected in the deepest depths of unexpectedness.
What a lovely surprise, Lord. You really do know how to tug at my heart strings. Thank you.
It was a 3 mile hike. I wasn’t watching the time so I don’t know how long it took us to finish it. It was just one of those wonderful carefree Friday afternoons. We talked about everything under the sun, literally. We didn’t want to talk about work but often times we couldn’t avoid it and found ourselves going back to the topic. But we were still able to talk about personal stuff and laugh about a lot of random things. The exercise, the sun, the scenery, the companion, the talk - it was all good for the mind, body and spirit. It was wonderful, just wonderful, and it was more than I could ask for.
She’s one of my favorite people in the world. She’s so American in culture, yet she’s open, patient, nice, not to mention, funny. Her work ethic (and skiing skills) amaze me. Her simplicity is admirable. She and my mother are around the same age, yet we get along so well, almost as if we’re from the same generation.
I’m so blessed to work with her in the lab, have her as some sort of mentor and hopefully, have her as a good friend for years to come.
I don’t really cuss this much, but…
Fuck this long distance relationship. And why do I put up with it? Because of love? Well then fuck love. The more I love, the more I miss, the more I long for the physical presence, the more I feel alone, the more I hurt.
But I love you, yet I can’t endure this anymore. I’ve said that a thousand times before and each time feels like it will be the last. But after it all I’m still here, loving you. What a sucky and selfish way of showing my love, ain’t it? So for the nth time, I can’t endure this anymore yet I love you.
Fuck this long distance relationship.
Fuck love.
Note to self
For most people here in the US, when they offer something (e.g. drive you home when it’s along the way of their destination, treat you for a food), they’re doing it because they really want to help you and it’s convenient for them. They’re NOT doing it only for the sake of being nice, because if it’s inconvenient for them and they don’t wish to help, they would not offer at all. It’s not like in the Philippines where most people would offer to help even if it’s inconvenient for them or they don’t really want to, just for the sake of being nice and polite or for the appearance of being one. (I’m sorry, but it’s true.) Though I may say, it doesn’t apply for everyone there too and there really are people back home who are genuinely kind and nice.
So the next time an American friend offers to help, don’t hesitate or be shy in accepting it, unless you really have a true and valid reason (e.g. other plans were already made, person offering is clearly a crazy manipulative witch or a pervert.) (I’m sorry again, but such rare creatures really do exist still.) In such cases, explain honestly and say thank you anyway. In the absence of such reasons, accept the offer and be grateful, otherwise it would almost appear to be an insult.
The urge to be indifferent from what’s popular
Just a few random (and rebellious, if I may say so) thoughts on the hypes of today:
I no longer watch Gossip Girl, Glee and American Idol.
I haven’t watched a single episode of Jersey Shore, and it will remain that way forever.
I’ve only played Temple Run for a total of more or less a minute.
Those FitFlops are comfortable, but their design sure looks ugly. (Sorry)
I’m still waiting for the Instagram app for Android.
I’d rather have bad times with the Harry Potter series than good times with the Twilight series.
I no longer wish to upgrade the first generation iPad that was given to me by my parents as a gift two years ago, or purchase any digital tablets in the future.
The Kindle is nice, but I still feel a lot more at ease holding and reading a real book.
I’d take Juneau, AK over Los Angeles, CA anytime of the day, for as long as I live.
Hiking in the wild is definitely a lot better than shopping in malls.
I wish I could liquidate Paris Hilton and use the assets to alleviate hunger and poverty in the world.
I don’t claim to be above or better than anyone. I’m just learning more about myself and what I really want, and valuing what really matters. Learning, it sure never ends.
Dredge Lake Trail
March 17, 2012, St. Patrick’s Day
With Jasmine, Dan, Cubby and Titania
Unedited photos straight from the camera
My first time to hike on a trail in Juneau, AK and walk over frozen lake
Made me wish I read a lot more on dSLR settings in capturing light effects and bought a tripod and the right snow shoes; Made me realize how much I love Juneau and want to stay here
Wonderful friends, adorable (and well-behaved) dogs, beautiful nature and a gorgeous day. LOVE!
Dear God, I wanna take a minute, not to ask for anything from you, but simply to say thank you for all I have.
Almost there.
I survived the Alaskan Winter! It’s actually not that bad. At least not here in Southeast Alaska. Ironically, I’m wishing for more snow because I’m going skiing tomorrow. Finally. For the first time in 26 years.
Should be fun.
Taken at front desk, Extended Stay Deluxe Juneau
